In the beginning of Johns narration about the ministry of Jesus he writes: ”All things were made through him, and without him was not any thing made that was made. In him was life, and the life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.”
I am walking in the woods as I am trying to understand this, but my mind is too small for such a huge and powerful truths. Then I hear, but I don’t hear and it’s like I see but nothing visible.
“I have created everything around you. Do you know that? Can your mind grasp the reality of that? I have created every living thing. I created man so that together we could care for one another, all animals and nature. I never created you to do that alone. I chose to make my home within the depth of man so we could share everything in the utmost intimacy. That was the way you were intended to live. Then what I hoped wouldn’t happen happened. My creation rejected me. So I locked the door to my home and guards are protecting it day and night. Nothing, no one can enter except I. So, you were born without my presence and you have tried everything to brake up that lock. You have experienced the result this has created for humanity; the meaninglessness, the emptiness, the loneliness. I have let you experience the weight of it. This is what I chose to release you from the day I died.
The day arrived when you chose to believe me. You were just given half a seed, but you planted it. It became a tree, half alive and half dead. You have fought so hard to master the dead, not noticing my presence of life within you. You have used techniques, resources, solutions and strategies your surroundings has had to offer you. You have not come to me. The true life in which there is no darkness.
One day I made the choice to flood your soul with my light. You were so confused and scared. My light has won the war and in light darkness cannot prevail. You wonder why I waited so many years while your life ran between your fingers like sand in an open hand. I know why you decided to delay, but do you know that? My beloved friend, my beloved sister, you are my responsibility now.
You think you are creative, but the source of all creativity is within me. Everything you perceive, everything you see around you and within you is done by me. You write and draw about it as if it was yours, but nothing is made or will be made without me. You read and gain knowledge but there is no wisdom apart from me. All wisdom and true knowledge begins and ends in me. When you say you know something without me being your teacher it doesn’t matter how true it is it carries no life with it. You do not have the ability to create anything I haven’t already created. When you create apart from me you make a forgery. I died for you so I could move in again and when I moved in it was for ever. I made sure that everything that ever could come between us was nailed together with my as I was nailed to the cross. That’s how much I valued the possibility that you would let me come close to you. I will help you reconcile with what has been your life. I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go.”