The apostle John writes in his gospel ““For God so loved the world,[a] that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.”
One morning in May I sat in my car waiting for the time to come for a lecture I was going to hold. It was early morning. 25 years had past since that day in China when I had asked Jesus to forgive me the first time. Since then I had wholeheartedly tested different ways to become what I thought he wanted me to be. I had failed. Completely. So many people had prayed for me, driven out demons from my life and fought spiritual forces on my behalf, but nothing helped. I had studied different theology’s and really tested there reliability with my own soul as the tool to do so, but nothing seemed to line up logically with the Bible.
A magazine had published an excellent article written by an American pastor* and he broadcasted radio programs that I could download and listen to. I decided to listen to one of them. A few sentences into the program he said he was person who needed all the details. At that moment I knew I would get an answer to the question that had consumed me for such a long time: was I forgiven forever or not.
The more the pastor revealed the more my inner being became still. The truth that I already was forgiven and that this forgiveness took place 2000 years ago became a peace that swept into my soul.
It became so clear to me that what Jesus did was done for every human being throughout all ages. From standing beside my whole life I suddenly became together with. I am a part of Gods family and here is where I belong. That belonging reaches further from all structures and orders of what I can comprehend. It is in Christ. In him there is no distinction between us.
Paul describes it this way to the church in Galatia ”There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free, there is no male and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus.”